那就是我

我像她们一样

喜欢逛街永远多过学习

喜欢零食永远多过白饭

我只是一般的女人

我希望被人爱

也不会吝啬我的感情

我希望每天睁开眼时都能见到你的睡脸

我希望睡前能听到你对我说晚安

我希望每次跟你约会都能顺利和愉快

我希望每次你送我到家后

会拉住我的手对我说"我舍不得你"  

我希望的事情有很多

因为我只是一般的女人

我想有一个整洁又漂亮的房间

心爱的床

心爱的抱枕

心爱的电脑

如果可以..

旁边再加一个心爱的你

我想有一个大大的衣柜装满四季的衣服

不用每天都在踌躇衣服太少

要穿什么衣服出门

也不是说杜绝所有丑的女人

我本来也不漂亮

只是想办法让自己看起来有精神一点

邋邋遢遢的女人走在路上感觉周围都是细菌

我才不信那些男人口中说的"我不介意你的长相"

通常他们一开始不介意

但是都会有介意的时候

就像我说我不介意我自己不漂亮

但我也想让自己漂亮一点

我并没有在跟谁比美

我只是一般的女人

爱打扮不是错

是为了在你或者朋友面前

能够被你们大方的介绍出去

----"这是我的女朋友"

----"这是我朋友"  

我喜欢想象

过去和未来我都会想

刚刚发生过的事情

我时候会想要是当时我没这样那结果会怎样?

对于未来的事我想得更多

未来的你还是不是同一个

我不是古代的女人

当然不会给你私奔浪迹天涯

我想要一个现实的生活

我不相信那些住在瓦房的夫妻们

在下雨漏水时能有多幸福

我希望你能为了我

拒绝所有对你示爱或暧昧的女人

跟异性朋友也不能太亲密

我只是一般的女人

想拥有一个稳定的恋情

因为分手后我会很伤心

需要时间去恢复调整状态又去爱下一个人

然后又要花时间去认识、了解、相爱

接着再说一次这段话

女人的青春很短

你可以50多岁了去找20来岁的姑娘

我50多岁的时候

却在家里面对一个没劈腿的炒菜锅

我不想浪费我的时间在伤心、恢复、寻找中。

如果你爱我

请你一定要珍惜我这个一般的女人

我不爱你就不会跟你说那么多

我很情绪化

我也会表达出来

甚至有时候会无理取闹

在我生气的时候希望你能忍耐

如果是生别人的气

你要安慰我

我叫你走开你千万别走

你哄我几句我就会平静了

如果是生你的气

我叫你走开你就真的要走了

但千万要记得回来

也许我冷静后会先认错

也许我在等你道歉

因为我只是一个一般的女人

吵架后还能冷静下来听道理、接受道歉

别说"你们女人总是这样子"

因为你喜欢上的就是一般的女人

有种你去找不会这样的女人

我每个月都挨放血差不多一个星期

前后的心情有多糟你体会不到

那就请忍耐我的脾气

我喜欢看偶像剧、喜欢看情感剧、喜欢听情歌

就像你也有喜欢的游戏、球赛一样

有时候我会把自己想成是戏里的女主角

期待着美好的事情发生

你有空的时候可以陪我一起看、一起笑、一起哭

别说我太天真

我也只是在想象而已

我当然知道你没有戏里的男主角那样好到不现实

就像你也知道我没有A片主角那样火辣性感

因为我只是一般的女人

我当然也会试着去做女强人

不用依靠

不需要爱情

成功白领

但是我只是一般的女人

我需要爱

需要一个每天都能快乐的心情

想要一个爱的人陪

想要一个不会尴尬不会漏水的家

我就是这样的一个女人~~

我只是一般的女人~

我要的真的只有那么的简单~~

我可以为爱变得很单纯~

我可以为爱放弃一切尊严~

我可以为爱变得很脆弱~~

因为我爱的永远只有你~~

Lomo Shooting

2day suddenly got that feel for shooting~

Borrow Baobei Zi Canon S95 and non stop of shooting~

2day suitable for the Lomo feel~~

1st time feel my house so got feel nia~

so like this~~natural~

darling~~u really fat lol~kakaz

baobei Zi dun kill me~~Not me~~

i think i crazy already~

wear my sleeping shirt and shooting with them~~

like a sleeping cat look~

next time without make up i sure won't take this~

But this is real of me ^^

无法停止的痛

思念想毒瘾一样，那么的让人难以忍受~
疼痛的心，要如何治疗？
我要的，只是简简单单~~~
我只是一个普通的女人~
我是你第一个女人~~你是我第一个男人~
我真的爱得太深，太深了~~
深到我一次又一次的作出疯狂的事情~~
曾经有那么一刻我真的想离开这世界~~
我已经变得人不像人，鬼不像鬼~~
可是，我知道还有很多爱我的人~~
我知道我的离开他们会很难过~~~
我很想就一直昏睡下去，醒不来~~~
心中千千万万的舍不得~~~~
我一次一次地伤害你~~对不起~~
请原谅我的任性，原谅我的笨蛋~
我真的好爱好爱你哦~~

男人最舍不得分手的女朋友

1、总扁着嘴在你面前说自己很坚强，其实常常哭鼻子。

2、天天嚷着喜欢帅哥，可包包里夹的、手机里存的PP却全部只有你一个。

3、把你挖鼻孔的样子拍下来，然后小人得志地威胁你，如果胆敢对不起她就把照照发到网上去。

4、同家长吃饭，在桌下偷偷握着你的手。

5、喧嚷的街道上，蹲下来为你系紧松开的鞋带。

6、佛祖生日那天，挤进庙会求了两张护身符，一张为你、一张为老爸。

7、丢掉NIVEA樱桃红的唇膏，买来无色青苹果味道的，因为这样可以同你一起用。

8、生气时蛮不讲理，可过一会儿就全忘了，又偎在你怀里乖乖的。

9、当你问她“你是不是我的乖猫咪”时，她会说“我是你的母狮子！”... ...吼吼！

10、憧憬着为你生一对双胞胎，一个丫头、一个小子。然后说孩子长得像我一个人就好了，像你就丑S了！

11、对你说“我才不要做大老婆，我要做小妾，这样你才能多疼疼人家！”

12、弄了一个你喜欢的发型，出了美发店立即打电话给你，吓唬你说刚刚做了一个“爆炸式”。

13、在你说错话时，装作很用力似的握起小粉拳挥向你的脸，然后把一脸痛苦状的你抱过脑袋来亲亲。

14、为了你很晚了还泡在网上，直到你催了N遍后横着眉说“再不下去我要生气了”才怯怯地去睡觉。

15、问你愿不愿意为她去跳楼，如果回答不愿意她会说你不爱她，回答愿意她就说那你跳吧。

16、换新电话时，电话本里输入的第一个号码是你的，列入“家人”组。

17、路痴啊，出门在外一定要你牵着手，你往哪走她也乖乖地跟着往哪走。

18、吃冰淇淋非要去麦当劳，吃烤翅非要去肯德基，还得你陪着。

19、你发给她的短消息，她一条也舍不得删。

20、订立了一个不平等条约，第一条是：老婆永远是对的。第二条是：如果真的是老婆错了，参考第一条。

21、“爱情这东西，会让一个女人渐渐地忘记理想，却会让一个男人更加地坚定自己的理想。”她觉得这句话真对，现在的她只想时刻依偎在你的身旁，做一个幸福的小女人。 

他做的事

1.紧紧地拥抱，没有说任何话，就这样一直抱着~
2.亲亲我的额头，对我说：“傻瓜。。”
3.不时惊喜地出现在我的面前~
4.知道我累了，会给我舒服的按摩~
5.睡觉是总是会抱着我，不抱他，他会生气~
6.知道我喜欢吃什么，总是会带我去吃。。
7.不要我化妆，因为要我回家时可以马上睡觉，不用卸妆~
8.驾车时，总爱牵着我的手~
9.喜欢和我穿一样颜色的衣服~
10.常做帮我做家务，因为他懂我笨手笨脚~
11.会准备早餐给我吃，还很认真~
12.比我早起的时候，会把我的头抬起来睡在枕头上，帮我盖被！
13.常打来问我吃饱了没，洗澡了没，如果还没有，会命令我马上去~
14.知道我爱拍照，总是和我一起疯~
15.陪我看我喜欢的电影，虽然自己并没兴趣~
16.牵着我的手在海边散步~
17.说我一个月肥到40kg，就赞助我买相机~可是很难吧~
18.会常常看我的博客，知道我最近在想些什么，做些什么~
19.为我掉眼泪，因为他懂我伤心了~
20.在facebook说：“‎Nikki Tan， 你说，你喜欢海边，更喜欢看海，因为那里有我们的回忆～～等我有这个能力了，我们一起去这里，好吗？我爱你～～～～”地点是：马尔代夫Maldives




这些都是他最近对我做的事，令我感动开心的事~

My Bad Luck

Totally bad luck for this 2 days~ Why i'm said so?
Yesterday rush for the assignment whole of the day.
I just remember that Jaclyn wanna coming my home~
When i'm back, i just realize that my laptop CANNOT detect the WIRELESS..
totally shock when face it and straight bring it 2 the PC shop for repair it~
The man told me that maybe my Wireless card spoil already~
wanna change a new 1...I totally sad with my wallet~~
Trying 2 format myself but still can't make it~Finally I surrender and planning go 2 Low Yat repair it~
HE suddenly call me that he will coming later with "little cockroach" .
Something thinking my brain that time " Isn't it my home enough 2 contain so many of ppl?"
Sorry for Darling that can't go for swimming coz really have no more time~
But having a Happiness TomYam Steamboat with Darling, Baobei Mary and Mao Ge^^
Jaclyn went to accompany her "dear dear"..
He and Xiao Qiang went to Old Town on9 and after that snooker again until midnight~ =.="
I'm Crazy with the hamsters that fed by Jaclyn...
It's were cute~~~I really love them so much~
But I think I have no such patient and love for feed a pet~coz i'm scare the feeling when it leave you~
4 ppls share for 2 beds,3 pillows and 1 coverlet~

That's was a bad morning 4 2day~
Wake up in the earlier morning and try 2 change clothes and go 2 school~
unfortunately, the lock was broken down and we 3 girls lock inside the room~
OMG!!!my class was late already..i can't miss it again coz already skip for many time~
3 guys outside keep thinking and finding the tools to try break the door~
at beginning i just lay on the bed and waiting for help~
after that we corporate 2 try separate the lock~
Finally we decided that kick the door...
Just realize that how easy 2 broke it and why we not use this earlier...
my class already late for 45mins and I also try 2 rush there~But also mark as "LATE"
The more worst was coming, I forgot bring my assignment~~OH SHIT~~
Wanna pass up later and wat should i do now???
Planning print out 1 more time at CITC and Burn the CD
Really so Bad luck I am coz my Pendrive attacked by virus and my file gone~~~
Argh~~~~~~~~~I wan shout out all my feeling~~~
luckily Jaclyn's dear took me back for my assignment and fetch me to skul again for pass up~~
feel so sorry coz make trouble again~~~ T.T

Went to Low Yat for fix my laptop~~B4 that having my Lovely Sushi Zanmai ^^
Dunno why the 2 "couple" always said something wanna gek me~~
Isn't they 2 wanna trying my patient?
Introduced by Xiao Qiang for  going to his fren there and checking the problem~
Waiting for a long time there luckily got his accompany~
Sorry for that waste a lot of ur time for back....
And also Paiseh with Jaclyn and Xiao Qiang too~~
Send him to the Bukit Jalil Bus station~~
Feel funny that always He send me or I send him~
Goodbye again for him and dunno when the next meet~~

continue with Time Square again~~I really can't tahan for buying clothes~~
shopping with my heavy laptop...my back almost wanna broken down~~
New Hamster again~~
But it so fierce and can't mixed with the other 2~
Jaclyn so annoying and dunno how 2 settle it~~

Curious why no pics for recently~~
Coz i'm getting lazy 2 take it~~and no make up for this day coz he coming~~
look tired and pure~~hehe

NEW URL

i dun wan my blog turn become so fake~

i wan real of me~i wan write down the truth of my feeling~

really felt difficult when i wanna write down the blog~

so now~i change my URL~

the blog just only for those who really care of me~

i won't try to publish it and hope my fren help me 2~

coz this blog really full of my memory~

and not really want to close it and reopen new 1~

sometime blog really a powerful things~

it can hurt ppl, can make ppl happy~

but for me, i just wan 2 write down all my truth feeling~

most the ppl look on it, i will become more fake and fake~

i just wan to write down the truth Nikki here~

HEy fren~~Save my Link with the name "Sho Po" ya~

coz i'm totally was Sho Po now~

I was just thinking something just let and can forget through the time~

but a scar inside and won't be disappear anymore and will keep on pain~

Stupid me just thinking all will over but finally just realize i can't make it~

i'm so hope i will get my answer soon~

thz for u all support~i will make a smart decision~

last meet

Sungai Buloh Now~~coz he was here~

meet my dear Jaclyn yesterday~~I'm sure that many ppl dunno who is her..

Actually she was my secondary school fren who was sit beside me when we are Form 5.

Always done something crazy coz we 2 got something wrong 1~

that's why we still fren now~

already having 1 year above no see her at all....almost wanna forget her~~kakaz 

i'm so happy coz she found her lover already~~

almost wanna 1 year they 2gether.bless them forever ever~

after my BCL lecturer, still wanna rush my assignment ITAM ~

But wanna Thanks my Baobei Cheryll for teaching me do for it~^^

always skip the class make me miss lot of the things~luckily i got baobei help me review back~

Use 1 and half hour 2 reach here~~really tired with my heavy pack~

When inside the KTM, I almost wan faint coz too hot~~like inside the Sauna...

finally meet him ,his dad and his cutie bro~haha

why all the ppl here also ask me the same question?

"2moro no class o?" 

Ya...no class for 2day~

He busy working 2day and i'm lonely on9 at room.

He wan me 2 back early coz he scare late will dangerous...

Come just for a while~~haizz~~

date with him

Having a great date with him~

1st went to the Sungei Wang“鲜定位”having our lunch~

I listen from my sis that this restaurant not bad~

come and try for this~

b4 the meal coming, still like 2 take pic~~

have u all mention that we 2 also having a pair of big pouch~

we 2 also sleepy coz last night watch the "Harry Potter" at midnight

site order with the sausage~~

taste normal lol~~

finally the set package was coming~

this is三杯鸡~and my 鲁肉饭~

this one not bad ~~i like it~

after that went to Pavilion having my favorite SNOWFLAKE~

it really make me thumb up all the time~

i'm happy always when having it~

after that non-stop took the pic with the design Christmas of Pavilion~

it's really like the palace~

Use the Hp camera really can't make it look nice~~

but the real 1 really nice and like a dream~

thanks him for help me took this~~^^

the feirenheit Chirstmas's tree was made by CD~

so special and tall~

i think their theme is music~

finally he was back~~~

but after 2 days I will meet him again~~^^

Surprise from him

Surprise!! !Again.....

He always like 2 do this kind of things~

He really make me dunno how to response of this...it's really touch and happy~~

This time he really successes of this , i'm not expect that he will coming!

I felt thanks with all you done for me~

although still having 1 month just reach Christmas~

But now already having the environment of the Christmas Feel~

The Time Square already design with the Candy houses~

it's really cute and sweetness~

Me and Him~~My Man who I am appreciate~

darling and her gentle Man~

Me and Darling~~

We and the Big present~when i just can accept this kind of big present?

We are watched the "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows:Part 1" 

with him ,darling, cheryll and their man~

actually i already forgot half of the story b4~~

so when i watch got a little bit blur~but finally i know what's the story~

Planning for collect whole episode for this~~But i think my sis will do it~kakaz~

But it's really awesome for this episode, even he nvr watch b4 episode also get a lot of fun~

having a nice sleep with his warm body~^^

就那么简简单单

我要的， 

有个人和我一起吃饭， 

只要开开心心的， 

路边摊一样可以吃的很满足。 

我要的，

手牵手、快快乐乐的一起去压马路。 

我要的，

每写一篇日志、写一个心情，有个人，始终在我身边看着我感慨万千， 

给我回复，回应着我的感受，

让整个世界都知道，

我们

很幸福很幸福。 

我要的， 

在我难过的时候，什么话都可以给那个你说。 

一句亲爱的，别难过，你还有我。 

心里的难过就会好很多很多， 

因为我知道，

有个人在我的身后默默的支持我、关心我。 

我要的， 

在我孤单的时候，有个人给我发发短信，让我听听你的声音。 

这对我来说，比什么有趣的书、好玩的游戏都重要，都能让我欣慰。 

因为我知道，

有个人，虽然不能见我、陪着我，

但是心里却一直在挂念我。 

我要的， 

一声叮嘱、一声关爱、 一句问候。

吃饭了么？饿了么？累了么？ 

其实，

对我都是珍贵的、暖暖的。

我发誓永远都不会嫌这样的你啰嗦。

一句我们一起，什么困难我都能扛下去。 

其实，

在我心里都会荡漾出最幸福的涟漪。 

我不要温柔的甜言蜜语、不要海枯石烂的誓言。 

我要的，

只是一个紧紧的无声拥抱；

只是要一只能牢牢牵住我、不会随便丢掉的小手。 

我不要你每一分钟都陪着我，

你也有你的生活，我不想干涉你太多。 

我要的，

只是你能够相信我，

说得出就能做得到的行动，

温暖着我的心底、充满幸福的滋味。 

很多感触、很多感动。

我都放在了我的心里慢慢的回味， 

一条关怀的短信、一声电话骚扰。

其实，

都是我在想你的表现。

你懂吗？我想要的仅此而已…

未来的未来，未知未觉。

迷茫的彷徨，期待的不可预知。

没有信誓旦旦，没有笃信和永远的保证。

一双手，暖暖的牵着。

十指，牢牢的交叉。

相信。

房子，那是一个温暖的家，而不是豪华的奢侈。

车子，交通的代步。

慢慢来。

存款，不用太多，并不是富二代才会幸福！

两个人一起为未来奋斗，平淡也温馨。

不曾羡慕房子、车子、票子，

一起规划的将来，更有保障…

当然，前提是我们也不会无家可归。

简简单单、手牵手。 

我并不脱俗，相反，

世俗的现实。

我并不可爱，也会烦人、也会任性的无理取闹。 

只是，

知道会有个声音告诉我:       

在我的眼里，你就是我的整个世界！ 

一世年华。    一生淡定。